Thursday, August 15, 2013

Time passes.




The other night, Ashlynn had me up three times.  This has become pretty par for the course lately as multiple teeth are trying to make their way though.  She's had three come through in the last month alone and I see more on their way.

As I got out of bed, again, to console her and hope just a well placed paci and back rub would console her enough to get me back in bed. She instead wanted up, and like usual, I obliged. Her pathetic cries told me this was pain and not just being cranky or a middle of the night nightmare.  I decided to give her some tylenol and then we sat and rocked.  She straddled my lap and rested her head on my shoulder, quickly being soothed by her blankie and bink... and mommy's embrace.

And I realized, as I do quite often, I didn't mind being up.  These days will pass us, just as her long nights as a newborn did.  One day, she'll loose these teeth that are working so hard to break through her precious gummy smile.  One day, her mouth will be full of full size teeth... and probably braces too.

And those days, even during the pain of orthodontic visits, she won't be consoled by sitting in my lap and snuggling on my shoulder.  And I remember, when she was just 5 pounds and literally wearing clothes the size for a doll, when did she get so big?  When did she start sitting in my lap and resting her head up on my shoulder at the same time?  Wasn't it just yesterday we had our nightly routine... and not a year ago?!


And time passes.


And I'm still in this chair, rocking my sleeping baby back and forth soaking in her freshly shampoo'd hair and rubbing the soft skin on her back humming a lullaby.  Will she ever remember how much I loved her at these moments...  Our relationship will change, no doubt, soon even with better verbal skills and more discipline on the horizon.  Will she ever remember the way I cuddled her endless hours of the night, the way I kissed her chubby soft cheeks, and our tradition of morning Eskimo kisses?


I love this child.  More than she will ever comprehend. 

26 comments:

  1. This was so sweet! I feel the exact same way :).

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  2. I could not have said it better myself! Sitting at my desk now with tears in my eyes. We are going through the same thing with my son (14 months). It is heartbreaking to see them in pain, but I definitely don't mind the extra cuddles! Love the blog!

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  3. I just cried. Going through the same thing now. :(

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  4. This is the sweetest, and truest post ever. Teething is the pits... But extra snuggles make it a little more bearable.

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  5. This post brought tears to my eyes. It is so true. Hudson has been waking up with teething pain lately and although I'm tired the next day, I really don't mind cuddling my sweet boy. I hope some day they will realize how much we love them!

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  6. Oh my word this post was so perfect! My little girl still wakes up at night and is easily comforted by some night nursing. I know she isn't hungry but just wants the comfort that mommy can bring and while I get frustrated that we still aren't sleeping through the night her 1st birthday is next week (!!!) and I know that these nighttime snuggles are going to be different and ending in the future when she just doesn't want to nurse anymore. This post was such a great reminder to just accept where you are now for what it is.

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  7. Well I just got all teary. It really goes by so quickly.

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  8. My little guy is still up a lot at night, but I love those snuggles. We'll never get these days back. This was beautifully written!

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  9. Way to make all the mamas cry! So so true. I'd love more baby snuggles, I miss them so.

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  10. Yes, definitely made me tear up as I know the feeling. Thanks for sharing it so perfectly, and reminding me that I need to express this love for my child so that someday he can read it and know. :)

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  11. Such a sweet reminder...I needed this! Ethan has been waking up several times a night lately as well and it's killing us but I know he must be in pain. I just love sitting there and rocking with him. Little love bug!

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  12. Oh yes. Just, yes. So beautiful.

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  13. I needed this today! We have been having some sleepless nights due to teeth too! I'm exhausted but I wouldn't trade the way he snuggles into my shoulder and is instantly calmed for anything. It's like that Darius Rucker song "It Won't Be Like This For Long".

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    1. I'm not a big country fan, so I had to youtube the song. Thanks for making me cry. Like a baby. :)

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  14. I love this post, these are the memories you'll be so happy you wrote down years from now.

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  15. This is beautiful! You are a get momma, Erinn!

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  16. Beautiful post, mama. Night time wake ups here too----sigh. Thanks for the perspective!

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  17. Erinn, what a perfect post. I am on the other end of things with my baby girl...who just turned 8 this summer. 8 going on 14, it feels like. And though my girl, stubborn and fighting for independence, and I bump heads often these days, I often remember the nights like you described, sitting in her glider...rocking her and soaking in the baby-fresh scent. I can only hope that during those times that we don't get along, that she remembers those nights too and how much her Mama loved her...and still does.

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  18. aw I loved this post! totally made me teary eyed! you described how i often feel during those middle of the night wakings. our little ones are so precious!

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  19. I am your newest follower and I love you bog and cant wait to read more

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  20. love this post. so, so sweet.

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  21. Beautiful post, being a mom has it's challenges but it's definitely the best. The love for our babies is so sweet

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  22. This made me cry. I just had one of these moments recently. I wish I could freeze time to have more of these moments.

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