Friday, December 24, 2010

...a not so very merry christmas, BAH HUM BUG

Sometimes when Life hands you lemons... it's completely impossible to make lemonade.  I mean, what if Life doesn't hand you sugar?... What are you supposed to do then, swallow down some sour drink and pretend it tastes sweet???... Fake it?

Sometimes Life is greater than shopping, decorating, and cooking.... pretty much the fluff (and fun) I fill this slice of the internet with.... Sometimes Life sucks and you can't hide from it, it finds you, and shows you there is more than shopping, decorating, and cooking... more that is better, and more that is worse.

I've been absent, readers. 

Which you clearly noticed since I may have posted, oh like what, 6 posts in the last two months when I used to hit at least 6 a week?...  At first, I was hiding.  You see I'm a terrible liar.  I couldn't come here and write freely about random life happenings because I felt like you'd all see through that... that there was more going on and that I was hiding a secret.  So like I do in real life, I went into avoidance mode.  I filled my time cataloging future posts... and lots of them.  I had lists of ideas, new 'wishlists', and lots of stories to share.

This was supposed to be a great week.  It Christmas for heaven's sake!

I was going to finally share my secret, a Strawberry Swing Christmas Surprise!... if you will.  Instead, Life - that stupid bitch without the sugar - decided to be an Indian giver (apologies for the non-PC term) and she took it back. 

She took it back.  And worse, she took it back without even telling me.

Maybe she didn't see my Joy, as I was trying so hard to keep it contained and under wraps until the beginning of 2011, as I had poised 2011 to be the "BEST.YEAR.EVER."  But Joy was here. Like Katy Perry's Firework... it was burning inside me.  Colorful, bright... just waiting to explode.

And Life came over with a bucket of water and extinguished my light.

... and now it's dark.

And this time an extension cord won't fix the fact the outlet on the porch is blown and stretch to another to power my Christmas lights.

Regardless of my Bitter Betty attitude just hours before the big guy in the red suit arrives, undoubtedly without what I asked for, I still believe 2011 could be the BEST.YEAR.EVER.  Instead of the planned window shopping, home decorating, and wishlist making I thought I'd be making, we've already come up with some new ones to fill in their place.  

...retail therapy (natch), different home reno's, maybe even a different house... you never know.

But first up for 2011, a much needed getaway to Bahamas with the Husband.  

.... I'm sorry Readers for such a depressing post at Christmas, but from what I've learned over the past few years is that Life doesn't give a crap about holidays or happiness and also that you are a wonderfully supportive group of friends.

In the spirit of Christmas, if you are able to, please do something extra nice for someone - a family member, friend, or even a stranger - in the next few days.  You never know what is happening in someone else's life and sometimes just a little extra generosity and love can put a smile on someone's face when they didn't even think it was possible. 

Wishing you all Christmas' that are Merry and Bright...


  1. Aw, I can unfortunately relate to your bad luck... It's been a crappy month for me as my father just passed away. I completely agree with you though- sometimes there just isn't a bright side. Time tends to help in most cases and I hope it can in yours as well. Take care and merry christmas.


  2. Ehayes, I'm so sorry to hear things haven't been going well. I was hoping that your absence indicated the opposite - things were too awesome to stop by or something. I'm sorry this wasn't the case. :( I hope your trip to the Bahamas is just what you need to get away, relax and enjoy your time with your husband.



  3. I'm sorry for your loss. I've been there- over the holidays, too. Hoping you find joy in the new year.

  4. I'm sorry for your tough few weeks - I hope you can still have a wonderful holidays with your loved ones and look forward for all the good things that are coming in 2011.

  5. I am so, so sorry. I can only guess, and my heart breaks for you if I'm right (I hope I'm not!).

    I too go into avoidance mode when life hands me lemons, so I understand the absence. It's especially hard to cope with hard times around the holidays. Please know that you should take your time to heal and come back when you're ready - we'll be waiting for you. I hope that you're able to enjoy your time in the Bahamas!

  6. I'm so sorry :(
    Sending you thoughts and prayers from Paris.
    I hope you relax and have fun in the Bahamas.

  7. Oh Erinn, I'm so sorry. I too can only guess what you're talking about, but I think I know and I'm just so sad for you. I too have had a really horrible month, no year. It's been blow after blow for me and the news I received a couple weeks ago was the icing on the cake. I'm really not in the Christmas spirit either :(
    Anyhow, hang in there, and I hope you can enjoy your holiday :)

  8. Beautiful post Erinn, I love you.....

  9. I hope all is well and that despite the crap-shoot life can hand over, you can find a little joy in your holiday. good luck with everything, and don't write 2011 off *just* yet. :)

  10. I'm not a huge fan of Christmas. I appreciate the joy it can bring, but there always seems to be sadness in the air. I always think of people who are hurting or feel lack of some sort. Christmas sort of magnifies that. I try to feel otherwise, but I've always been sensitive to it in that way.

    Tons of hugs to you. We'll be here when you're ready to return.

  11. I just wanted to stop in here and let you know that I was thinking of you today. I'm hoping that 2011 will be awesome for you & P. as cliche as it is, time is the only thing that can heal. but a trip to the Bahamas will be amazing. Merry Christmas, love.

  12. I'm sorry you're going through this. I pray things will improve and start to look up for you :) Hope 2011 will be your best year yet!

  13. I am so, so sorry you are going through this. It's an awful thing that no one should have to suffer through, especially during the holidays. I hope that your trip leaves you feeling at peace and ready to tackle 2011. I will pray for blessings for you in the new year.

  14. You are so right about life not caring what time of the year it is. I lost my grandmother on the 16th, five days before my honeymoon and obviously Christmas, New Years, etc. I thought it would be impossible to enjoy everythingg the way I should. However, it was a more theraputic than I thought. I hope your trip helps you just like mine did.
    December has been rough for many of us, it seems. However, I am thinking and praying for you and the tough time you and your husband are dealing with. With some hope and faith, we will all make it to a new and better year. :)

  15. I'm sorry you've been having a rough time recently. Here's to hoping that 2011 WILL be the best year ever.

  16. I'm so sad for you. Hope things look up soon. Take care.

  17. Keeping you in my thoughts...hugs to you!

  18. I'm so sorry to hear that you've been having a rough time. I hope that things start to get better soon. You will be in my thoughts!!

  19. Sorry to hear about the rough time you are having. Stay positive and you will see that 2011 is gonna be a better year.
    Sending a big hug your way!

  20. Just wanted to drop in and say that you're in my thoughts. I'm so sorry for what you're going through, and I hope that time and love will help ease your pain. Sending lots of hugs your way.


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